The passion to do it once more

Feelings can be controlled but tears will never lie.

Been talking about it for a while now and that passion to overcome that thin wall becomes lesser than usual, sometimes even to the extend that I wouldn't and couldn't even be bothered to respond to it anymore. I feel v bad about all these happening but what more can I do?

Messed up, me or you?

I think I srsly need to re-organise my thoughts on some things before I get srsly affected. It just doesn't seem like what it was before. There is somehow a block of thin wall building up.

Tmr, the day.

“Ability is what you're capable of doing. Motivation determines what you do. Attitude determines how well you do it.”

Poly 50 is going to take place tomorrow!! After all the tranings that we went/skipped/went but nvr run, its going to take place tomorrow! I can't wait to run with my full team because it has been so long since we had the full team, thus explains the picture :( I am really disappointed by the how responsible people can get. If they cannot commit to something which they already knew the schedule, thn don't particpate in the first place. If someone is going to back out tmr before the event, I swear I will ignore that person forever and I mean it.

Escape to the wetlands

Downtown with my dearest family was the greatest thing you could ever imagine! Sadly I can't go with MFP :( But Joey promised me that she'll go rock down Wild Wild Wet with me next time \m/ !!!

Mummy & Zixuan went WWW while the rest of us headed to Escape :( How I wish I could go WWW! I've been talking about the entrance since ages ago and now when I have the chance to go, cannot go :( Poor WanQing and I :(

Its ok! We have the cutest people with us and we made our trip so interesting because.... WE DON'T HAVE TO Q FOR THE RIDES! Practically not much people's there although its a weekend! Like what I told Milly jie jie, rich then go USS alr what! Still come to this run down area for what!

Like at night can film ghost movie also no need lighting lol!

We tried all the rides except for the Haunted House which is a big NO-NO!!! Luckily I have WanQing with me! If its Zixuan I think she'll force us in or something and not the other way round.

Went for Go Kart first, cuz obviously that's the only thing that is attractive there. Even the GO-Kart no need to queue for long sia. That's how pathetic the amount of people there is :( We had a warm up round with the Go-Kart Doubles, Wanqing drove me, Milly jiejie drove "driver" hahah! (For the first time, the driver is on the passenger seat) After that we went for a second round with a swap of drivers. WanQing said I was a reckless driver, but she don't know how I felt! It was so irritating when the lady in front of me couldn't drive properly, couldn't keep left, that's why I couldn't over take, neither could I slow down because Milly Jiejie's car is behind us. Omg I kept shouting "keep left" in the middle of the journey but that woman think she v funny hor, ignore us. Summore she doesn't know how to follow instructions one. Those helpers ask us to stop on the hill before going back to park the car, she just chiong all the way and left the helpers with some hand signal like "oh wtf is she doing" that kind you know. That's why hor, not I reckless driver, just that I met a rule-less driver on the road.

And thn we went to try the individual go-kart which was supposedly more fun. This time round that lady was queuing behind us again. So I smart alr. Be the first to set off. Only can block her, she cannot block me :p But unfortunately, WanQing's was behind hers and she finally knew how I felt lol! In the end of the day, "Driver" couldn't take it alr, so he went to bang that woman's car behind and over took her lol! Epic sia! The way he describe right, really damn funny hahah!

And oh, we gave her a name. Her name was "To the left, to the left."

And then we went to try on the Yakult fly, the ferris wheel, and some family ride mini roller coaster thingy.

WanQing couldn't resist the Viking's temptation and went on the ride with Driver. I didn't wanna do it because I had the super bad experience last year in Malaysia. Super Chengze sat with me and started crying non stop and I had to comfort him in the middle of the ride. Charyl couldn't take the continuous cycle and started vomitting in the hotel room. I started having giddy giddy feeling all because the man who operated the Viking didn't let it stop. It went on and on for at least 20-25 mins. Omg it was super long + all the drama thingo on the ride. Really bth. Maybe I'll do it in Genting when Mummy is there. I rmbed the last time I went, I sat on the roller coaster with Mummy beside me, but I was still so scared that I cried on the ride. And hey, its a mini coaster lol.

We went to purchase Ponchos for the wet and wild ride and since there was nobody queuing, we've decided to make full use of the money. I told her : Sit one time, poncho $1.50 each. Sit 2 times, $0.75, so we sit until one ride $0.05 la lol!!! In the end we took the ride for about 5 times before we've decided that the poncho's not going to work anymore cuz water is starting to sip in :(

Aferwhich we went to meet Mummy & Nicole since they're done with their WWW too! Had Macs for dinner and I went to sit the indoors Ferris Wheel is Nicole while the rest took the car home.

Ya know why am I on the phone? They called me and ask me if I had time to buy 4D for them lol!

We've thn decided to check out the arcade but I thought it would be rather expensive if we were to play there, so we must as well go take neo prints right! We spent like 1 and a half hr at the machine there deciding on what to design hahaha! I cheated because these are not the original copy but I took the pictures with my DSLR while she's designing at the last part :p

Like super cute only! This is my favourite :)

I can't wait for the Genting trip in exactly a month's time and all my Xmas gatherings are almost decided alr!!! Omg can't wait for school to end alr wth hehehe!!!

SEVEN things that crosses my mind alot

Becareful to whom you give your heart because when you give your heart to someone, you're not only going to give the person the right to love you, but also the right to hurt you.

This week has been a breeze and I cannot imagine how fast this semester is going to pass because a week feels like just a day to me :( Idk to leave school in a few months time and end up somewhere else although the future seems bright after listening to how Caleb analyses. I wanna continue studying, whether in University or in ACCA. I don't mind working and studying for ACCA at the same time, although night classes can be really tiring. I just don't wanna think about it yet. Maybe in a few weeks' time after those people from the big 4 come down to give us career talks.

Went FairPrice Finest with 5 yima & Milly jiejie & "Driver" this afternoon to do some groceries shopping. I completed all my tutorials (AMaths & MA) and I totally completely accidentally forgot about this module called AFA2 until Daniel smsed me and asked if I done with AFA2's tutorial as well. Totally kinda spoiled my mood cuz I thought I finished all my tutorials and I could RELAX :( Till now I am still not done with my AFA tutorial which I am kinda sad but I'll complete it in a while's time before I head out to Escape Theme Park tmr with Milly jie jie, Wqing, Driver and Mummy & Xuan will head to Wild wild wet! Omg I srsly wanna go Wild wild wet but all thanks to the sudden bloodly-out-break :( Its ok! I'll still got there next time, and hopefully I can do with MFP!!!!!!!!

Decided on 18th of December to celebrate Xmas with my BFFs cuz Yanwei is going Penang on the 19th :[

I saw this at Fairprice just now & I think its super chio! I wanna get it but I think its really expensive, around like $9+!!!!!!!!!!

Wait for my updates tmr! I'll be back with tons of pictures I swear! I will bring my DSLR to Escape :) Wait, its my sister's I mean lol!

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List of 7 things that crosses my mind alot:

1. When I die, will you cry?

2. What will my occupation be in the future?

3. I wanna do interior designing for my future apartment

4. I can continue studying

5. I wanna go Venice for Honeymoooon!!!!

6. Money to drop from the sky

7. Have 48 hours a day.

Eight ways to win my heart

I wonder how can people react normally after a big quarrel. I mean its not like as if we're on good terms alr, not like as if you don't know I still don't like to talk to you, not like as if you don't know they're closer to me. Why are you still trying to cling on to my friends :[ I am so happy when Lalitha smsed me this afternoon when I joined Daniel they all for lunch before Maths lesson. She asked if I wanted to join them for project cuz she knew it would be better that way, without having to stick to the old group :] I really appreciate that! I like how my classmates think for me and how they show they care.

I met Joey at the CASS room after school today and stayed there for an hour or so doing m tutorials while my dear friend is sleeping on the sofa! The aircon in the room is damn shiok and I like it the way it is! There are so many Mac Pcs but I really dk how to operate them :[ I keep pressing "Safari" waiting for something to pop out like how Microsoft window does, but nothing came out and I couldn't do anything with it. Life sucks like that!

Having IS lesson tmr and I srsly hope she can change it to another day to make my friday timeslot free so that I can do other things :> I hate the project work that we still have to stick to the same old group. I don't like how the way it works.

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Win by heart,

1. Be true

2. Be honest

3. Be self-less

4. Be cute

5. Be rich

6. Be as str8 forward as I am

7. Be my bestfriend

8. Be who you really are

Nine things about myself.

Before I start writing 9 things about myself, I wanna pen this down.

It was this Indian man who changed my impression a lil. It's not me being racist or I detest Indian man or what, but I think most chinese families has this similar thingo. When the kids are young, parent's would give examples of "bad guys" whom we should avoid. I am very sure many of your parents would use the words "black" or "fierce looking" to describe "bad guys" right!!!!!!! So it became something I am afraid of, even up till now. I always had the "I shall stay away from them" kind of thinking when I see one around me. But of course not those whom are my friends la, you get what I mean? Those weird weird looking ones.

But there is something and this particular time of the day when I will choose to be as near to them as possible. That's when I board the train to school. I'll try to locate any of them on the seats and walk in front of them, CUZ I WANNA SIT right! I know most of them will alight at Outram Park and there I will get my seat until I reach school. Only that. The rest, I'ld avoid.

This evening when I come was omw home from school, there is this guy was is sitting on the reserved seat. He is a chinese, young (around our age), quiet, but he looks like one of those weirder people or you'ld call them retard. I mean the real meaning of retard. When the person beside him gets down the train, he quickly puts his hand on the chair! He has no friends there and he was alone, so I have no idea why he wants to occupy that space for. The lady beside me and myself, didn't dare to grab that seat cuz he looks really weird and keeps staring at us, with words mumbling in his mouth. At the other side of the empty seat, this indian man took saw what happened, took a look at the both of us, and then stared at the seat, looked at us again, and then he shifted to the empty seat beside the weird guy. After which, he looked up and told us, have a seat, no worries. Omg! At that point in time, I really admired him for what he did and I swear I gotta pen this down so that I'll rmb NOT all "black" and "fierce looking" people are "bad guys" lol.

School was good today, had this lesson called "Communication Skills for Business". I thought it was kinda similar to "Critical Reasoning Skills" and "Report Writing and Presentation Skills" cuz we're required to anaylse and then write reports, after that, CLASS PRESENTATION. I thought it would be quite boring for now, but the lecturer sounds really funny & of course my class is always so active during discussions and we had so much fun this afternoon! We had to write and analyse ourselves to see what are the jobs that suit us so we could start writing a job resume next week! Kinda looking forward to that yeah \m/

Removed my stitch early in the morning and had my last tooth patched ^^ Only gonna see her in April, which is 6months later (Y)!!! Had laksa for dinner, home-cooked! Yummilicious I like!!!!!!

8am class tmr morning. AFA2, Caleb Lye. Many said that the lesson will only last for 20mins if cuz he taught us last semester and has got nothing to know more about. Lecture at 2 in the afternoon, SAME lecturer, SAME module. Lame right? 4hours break for the same thingo! And oh yes, Poly50 tmr! One last one before the actual one next Wednesday :D Gonna see MFP! Happy Happy!!

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1. I am very outspoken & super str8 forward

2. I love red & lime green

3. I enjoy staying at home as much as be outside playing

4. Once I start on something I like, I MUST finish it

5. Photography rocks my socks

6. I can draw super chio pictures

7. I spent 3/4 of my schooling life with pure chinese classmates

8. I nvr believed in happily ever after

9. Nine is my favourite #

TEN things I want to say to ten different people right now.

First day of school was good because we had our MA tutorial in the afternoon canceled (Y) I like lecturers who cancels their first tutorials cuz we have nothing to do anyway right!!!!! Tmr is not gonna be that good cuz I'll be removing my stitch tmr at Parkview & I actually felt the thread inside my mouth just now!!! The last time I extracted the tooth, I could feel like also but I tried not to think about it this time round :[

Went shopping and ate Bugis's Duck rice!! Super nice! Xinyan bought alot alot of cute cute things but I'm on a budget week, so nothing for me :]

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I wanna tell Mummy, I love you alot alot.

I wanna tell Daddy, please take care yeah.

I wanna tell Sister, jiayous for your projects (& pls do them on your own)!

I wanna tell Wqing, I miss you now!!

I wanna tell Nicole, 26th Nov!!!

I wanna tell Xinyan, thanks for being there for me everything I complain in class!

I wanna tell Joey, Movie date next week & non-stop fun!

I wanna tell Nuning, don't worry, we'll all there for you.

I wanna tell Thomas, IMY come back soon!

I wanna tell ********, better don't piss me off when I'm in a good mood.

Spin for thoughts.

Dark blue misty laces

People wouldn't agree with me for no reason. I really dw to go back to school tmr because the thought of seeing people I really fdw to see makes me want to skip school.

I don't like people who will act cute in front of the lecturers and pretend as if they are really cool, when the fact is not true. I don't like people who smile in front of me, knowing that I don't like them and I think the reverse is true. I cannot stand people who will kinda por your classmates and lecturers just to get benefits or to win favour, I don't like. I don't like people will stick to me where ever I go when they know I fdon't like them. I don't like to have a dog barking behind talking bad about me yet following me around. I don't like hypocrites who will talk bad about me to other people but obviously those people will come and tell me cuz no one likes people who complains. I don't like to feel this reluctant to do something. I don't like to don't like to go school. I don't like to frown/be angry in school cuz its a place where I make alot of friends.

I am not that kind of person who will smile and laugh with you and talk bad about you behind your back but you are. If I don't like you, I show it on my face. I just don't talk to you. If you piss me off, means you piss me off. You don't have to try and salvage this situation because I tell you, no use trying. It wouldn't work. Things don't happen in a day or after an accident. I just don't like you and these are cumulative. Try harder to make me smile, you. I just wish that my 5 senses would automatically shut off when it comes to you, so that I will love school as it is.

On a sidenote, tmr marks the start of another 1/2 semester in school and its gonna be the last semester in Singapore Polytechnic SB! I kinda really look forward to it (except for the above mentioned)!

P/S Removing my stitch on Tuesday before I head to school for lessons! Hurray!

Gonna give this a try xD

Day one: ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day two: nine things about yourself.
Day three: eight ways to win your heart.
Day four: seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day five: six things you wish you’d never done.
Day six: five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day seven: four turn offs.
Day eight: three turn ons.
Day nine: two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day ten: one confession.

Blue in the sky, Sand in my toes

I like how much fun I had with this bunch of people. Although we aren't that close to the extend that we talk to each other everyday, but I believe that the bond we have with one another is nothing less. I like how the silence between the people feels really comfortable, although there isn't much time of silence cuz we're all so noisy. I like how we talk and play like as if nobody else's care, although I know how many people are staring at us. I like the way we communication, not to the point but yet that str8 forward cuz only the intended parties need to know. I like how we wait for one another's food to arrive before we "jia" and how much gossips and stories we always have to share.

I can't believe this is happening on show.

If you can't tell what's wrong, your English is as LAO-ZEE as theirs.

They've been there a week up till now.

Other than My Favourite People, also known as MFP, I have no idea about my other favourites.

Ok now I srsly miss this few people cuz I haven't tried not talking to them for so many days in a row since the day I met them! Awesome bunch of friends I have here!

They're in Sri Lanka and we went to send them off last Monday, and my dear Joey has been sending me updates about how are they doing and how Anselm injuried his legs and so on!

Say THREEzxzxc

Yes you 3 + Daddy! Come back lol!

This guy Raymond who doesn't allow me to eat Chilli since my throat is not feeling well.

Group photo!